When I said "I miss you" tonight it didn't mean what it normally would. I miss you... the old you.. the you who was always up for making me happy, whether it be serenading me, consoling me or even finishing your money on me. Anything as long as it made Ida happy... I guess I've been missing that and... I'm going to miss that.

My brother once told me people do things out of the ordinary to overcompensate for something. I am jolly and 'hyper' all the time to overcompensate for the fact that I feel sad a lot of the times... but people don't understand that, so they can't tolerate it. On the inside though, I have a sensitive heart. It really hurts when people don't accept you. Guess in the end, the only person I have that will always be there for me, is me.