*+.Masih Jelas*.+

This song was sung by Hafiz AF7 for his final concert. It was extremely touching and the melody that composed it was exhilarating; insurgently painful but without a doubt, 100% mind-blowingly beautiful at the same time. Even to this day when I hear the song, I feel hairs at the back at my neck come to a swift standup. The lyrics are absolutely touching and you can feel the suffering in his voice. The atmosphere of the song makes me think of twilight - that moment of day where the sun sets and the air around you is suddenly hauntingly beautiful.

Beralih musim ke musim
Hati tetap serupa
Tiada yang berubah
Dari hari dikau pergi
Dikau pergi

Penjara.. hidup ini penjara
Tanpa ada simpati
Kepada sang kekasih
Yang dilanda, yang dilanda
Kehilangan..

Masih jelas setiap garisan halus
Bila senyuman kau ukirkan untukku
Masih jelas setiap lekuk penjuru
Menghiasi wajahmu
Waktu kau renung aku


Translation:
The seasons keeping changing...
Yet my heart, remains the same,
Nothing has changed since the moment you left.

A prison. This life is a prison,
without sympathy for the lover,
the lover that faces a loss...

Its still clear, every single line on your face when you smiled at me.
Its still clear, all the small creases on your face when you'd gaze at me.

I'm pretty sure the translation is no where as good at the Malay version. Malay is just such a beautiful, flowery and enriched language. It is naturally poetic, hence poetry and lyrics just sound so much more deep and meaningful then it would in English. Hard to explain, but if you were Malay you'd understand, its just so artistic. The impact is less coherent when you translate it in English.

Who can I call?

"If it isn't you, then there's no one."

5 Reasons To Be SERIOUSLY Pissed

1. The internet is being FUCKING slow and FUCKING facebook won't FUCKING work!

2. Youtube's FUCKING copyright policy enforcement and I can't listen to fucking songs on it. Which pretty much throws the whole purpose of Youtube down the drain. Idiots.

3. Youtube's fucking RACISM or discrimination against anyone who's not fucking AMERICAN! Why the FUCK can't I watch your videos if I'm not in America??! Fuck-heads!

4. I wake up and the first thing my parents do is NAG at me! Well no shit I stay locked up in my room, whenever i DO come downstairs you people nag at me.

5. Abg Rahim doesn't trust me that I need the money to pay my FUCKING PHONEBILL! Wtf?? How long have you known me?? Why the FUCK would I lie about such a thing?? WHAT THE FUCK?!

Take me away!

I FUCKING REALLY WANT TO GO TO THE BEACH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!

I feel like crying!

FUUUUUCCCKKKKKKKK!

Why Can't You See? You Belong With Me.

I've been listening to the song "You Belong With Me" by Taylor Swift the whole night :D Its so sweet. I think she's a really good singer, theres so many colours and different melodies in this song. I was thinking, if I were the singer i wouldnt have been able to come up with them. Like my favourite line is when she says "Hey whatchu doing with a girl like that~?" The way she says "that" is really nice :) The song also seems so easy to sing but I find it quite tricky.. maybe i'll give it another go tomorrow. I also like the emphasis she puts on "see" in "So why can't you see~?" Enjoy the rest of it:

I didn't post up all of it, just snippets to show you my favourite parts. Also jumbled it up a little for maximum efficiency :P I think Taylor Swift is really pretty. She's not my usual concept or standard of pretty but for some reason I'm drawn to her and I find her attractive. I think its internal. She seems like such a good person and nice, so when you're beautiful on the inside people will find you beautiful on the outside too :) I also like the videoclip. Its so sweet. The part at the end where she showed him her I Love You sign and turns out he had one too in his pocket! :D And I like how they right signs to each other across the window, its so romantic! And she looks so beautiful in a white dress, in LoveStory too! :) I like her curly blonde hair. Its a unique image in the music industry, everyone else has straight hair :) I like it. The guy is cute too, heez from Hannah Montana movie. I've been liking blonde hair alot lately.

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do.
I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like i do.


But she wears short skirts
I wear T-shirts
She's cheer captain
And I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find 
What you're looking for has been here the whole time~

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see~?
You belong with me~
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know, baby~?
You belong with me~

You've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better then that~
Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that~?


Oh I remember you drivin' to my house,
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And i know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me...

Have you ever thought, just maybe~?
You belong with me~

Its Erika's birthday party on Sunday and I'm EXCITED!!!!!! REALLY REALLY AM! I haven't been this excited for a party in a longtime, probably because its going to be a pool party and I used to love going to those in middle school.. until they stopped cause us teenagers discovered clubbing.. honestly I think pool parties are wayy better :) Its always nice when a party is at someone's home, it feels more.. homey and like the host bothered to invite us and it just feels more warm in general. And also more exclusive. You can go to a club any day.. why on a birthday? Secondly because I really like Erika :D and i missssss herrr! Haven't seen her in agesss, things have been very busy when my exams started and atfer i graduated. Sorry for not seeing you Erika! But yeah todays actually her birthdayy but her partys on Sunday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIKA! :D

I already know what I'm gonna get her for a present. Initially I was going to get her a big bouquet of flowers so she'll feel special when I walk in and hand them to her, but then i changed my mind on something else. Now I'm going to give her a perfume set instead, flowers don't last long but a perfume should last for about a year :)

Anyways thats all for this post, just had to let out my excitement. Lastly, I just hope to god hope to god hope to god that my parents let me go. Please mummy? :( please daddy?? I really wanna gooooo. Thats all. Peace out yo! xx

My 17 Favorite Bands + my 5 Fav Songs from them IN ORDER

PARAMORE:
1. Crushcrushcrush
2. That's What You Get
3. Decoy
4. Decode
5. Emergency

PANIC! AT THE DISCO:
1. Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off
2. The only difference between Matyrdom and suicide is press coverage
3. But Its Better If You Do
4. Build God, Then We'll Talk
5. Camisado

FUEL:
1. Shimmer
2. Bittersweet
3. Million Miles
4. Jesus or a Gun
5. Hemmorhage (In My Hands)

BREAKING BENJAMIN:
1. So Cold
2. Blow Me Away
3. Polyamorous
4. Sooner or Later
5. Diary of Jane

LINKIN PARK:
1. Numb
2. Lying From You
3. Faint
4. Easier to Run
5. Somewhere I Belong

NICKELBACK:
1. Savin' Me
2. Someday
3. Far Away
4. Photograph
5. Too Bad

JIMMY EAT WORLD:
1. Polaris
2. Disintegration
3. Hear You Me
4. Work
5. Pain

SWITCHFOOT:
1. Meant To Live
2. The Blues
3. Dare You To Move
4. Redemption
5. Stars

GOOD CHARLOTTE:
1. The River
2. I Just Wanna Live
3. Predictable
4. Dance Floor Anthem
5. Boys And Girls

MAROON 5:
1. Harder To Breathe
2. She Will Be Loved
3. Makes Me Wonder
4. If I Never See Your Face Again
5. This Love

COLDPLAY:
1. Viva La Vida
2. Fix You
3. Speed Of Sound
4. Yellow
5. The Scientist

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE:
1. I Don't Love You
2. Ghost Of You
3. Helena
4. I'm Not Okay (I Promise)
5. Welcome To The Black Parade

FALL OUT BOY:
1. Dance, Dance
2. Thanks For The Memories
3. I'm like a lawyer with the way I'm always trying to get you off
4. Sugar We're Going Down
5. A little less sixteen candles, a little more "Touch Me"

ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS:
1. It Ends Tonight
2. Move Along
3. Gives You Hell
4. Paper Heart
5. Dirty Little Secret

GREENDAY:
1. Boulevard of Broken Dreams
2. American Idiot
3. Holiday
4. Wake Me Up When September Ends
5. Whatshername

RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS:
1. Dani California
2. Californication
3. Fortune Faded
4. By The Way
5. Can't Stop

3 DOORS DOWN:
1. Let Me Go
2. When I'm Gone
3. Kryptonite
4. Here Without You
5. Landing In London


END NOTE: I REALLY recommend you check out the songs from some of the bands, in particular the songs from - Paramore, Panic! At The Disco, Fuel, Breaking Benjamin, Jimmy Eat World, Switchfoot and Good Charlotte's "Good Morning Revival" album.

I still keep the (!) at the end of "Panic" in Panic! At The Disco eventhough I'm fully aware they've dropped their exclamation mark with the debut of their second album. Their second album SUCKS!!!!! I'm was so disappointed! I LOVEDDDD the OLD Panic! The one WITH the exclamation mark, their sound was so unique and fresh. Now they just sound happy and bland. That 9 in the afternoon crap. What?? Lastly, I think the exclamation mark in their band name made them so much cooler. They've downsized; not only in their name but also in their music. The biggest shame of the century... siighhh.. But no matter, the old Panic! will still always remain my 2nd fav band :) Not to be confused with the new Panic which lacks the legendary (!).

20 Popular Female Vocalists with my 5 Fav Songs from them IN ORDER

Basically its like this, this is my blog so I have the power to do whatever I want on it eventhough it may be as pointless as this post :) hehe respect my personal space, my brain needs to unload somewhere.

In later posts I may do the same for 20 Bands or 20 Male Vocalists. I may have missed out some singers that I really like due to their insufficient number of hits or lack of an album - hence less variety to choose favs from.

This was fun, you should give it a go too! :)

BRITNEY SPEARS:
1. From The Bottom of my Broken Heart
2. Lonely
3. Cinderella
4. I Will Still Love You
5. Bombastic Love

KELLY CLARKSON:
1. Breakaway
2. Because of You
3. Behind These Hazel Eyes
4. Gone
5. Hear Me

RIHANNA:
1. Disturbia
2. Rehab
3. Cry
4. SOS
5. Take A Bow

LADY GAGA:
1. Just Dance
2. Pokerface
3. LoveGame
4. Eh, Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say)
5. Beautiful, Dirty, Rich

KATY PERRY:
1. Thinking Of You
2. Ur So Gay
3. I Kissed A Girl
4. Long Shot
5. Hot N'Cold

AVRIL LAVIGNE:
1. Nobody's Home
2. When You're Gone
3. My Happy Ending
4. Complicated
5. Anything But Ordinary

JENNIFER LOPEZ:
1. That's Not Me
2. I'm Gonna Be Alright
3. All I Have
4. Hold You Down
5. Jenny from the Block

NATASHA BEDINGFIELD:
1. Soulmate
2. Love Like This
3. These Words
4. Single
5. Unwritten

HILARY DUFF:
1. So Yesterday
2. Why Not
3. Now You Know
4. Fly
5. Come Clean

BEYONCE:
1. Me, Myself & I
2. If I were a Boy
3. Irreplaceable
4. Halo
5. Crazy In Love

CHRISTINA AGUILERA:
1. Fighter
2. Hurt
3. Dirrty
4. Reflections
5. Nobody Wants to be Lonely

MARIAH CAREY:
1. Obsessed
2. My All
3. We Belong Together
4. Don't Forget About Us
5. Bye Bye

JOJO:
1. Leave (Get Out)
2. Too Little, Too Late
3. Not That Kind of Girl
4. Baby It's You
5. Let It Rain

TATA YOUNG:
1. Sexy, Naughty, Bitchy
2. Call Him Mine
3. Cinderella
4. I Believe in Love
5. El Nin-Yo!

ASHLEE SIMPSONS:
1. Pieces of Me
2. Boyfriend
3. Outta My Head
4. La La
5. Shadow

CIARA:
1. 1, 2 Step
2. Oh
3. Goodies
4. And I
5. Love, Sex & Magic

LINDSAY LOHAN:
1. Over
2. Rumors
3. Confessions of a Broken Heart
4. Ultimate
5. Drama Queen (That Girl)

SHAKIRA:
1. Objection (Tanggo)
2. Hips Don't Lie
3. Whenever, Wherever
4. Don't Bother
5. Underneath Your Clothes

MICHELLE BRANCH:
1. Breathe
2. Everywhere
3. All You Wanted
4. Are You Happy Now?
5. Game of Love

KYLIE MINOGUE:
1. Red Blooded Woman
2. Chocolate
3. Can't Get You out of my Head
4. In Your Eyes
5. Come Into My World

Summary of my CRAZY-ASS Past Month!

I decided to log what I have been doing since exams ended:

June 10th:
- Exams ended
- One Utama with Syafiq :)

June 11th:
Went out with Navin & Iain to Curve.
- We watched Fighting :)!!
- Ate at Itallianies (I was out of cash, sorry guys :P)
- Then shot some pool

June 12th:
I missed Iain's brithday :(
- Was sposed to go to Euphoria
- Ended up getting carried away playing the BRAND NEW SIMS3!

June 14h:

Met up at one utama with him and navin to make up for it :(
- Watched 17 Again. FINALLY someone who wants to watch it with me! Syafiq never wntd to :P
- Iain ended up sending me home cause he was afraid navin would kill him if i took cab. Thank u iain :)

June 15th:

Business dinner organized by our lovely business teachers Ms Jones & Ms Hilly!
- Twas at Telawi Street Bistro in Bangsar.
- Our last meetup, it was awesome! We all received awards too! I got "Most Likely to receive an 8-Page spread in OK Magazine" ;)

June 18th:

Went out with the Utama-ians. Amirah came to visit from Singapore so we all met up. Me, syafiq, Nik (who also just recently came back from Philippines), Ridhwan, Adeline, Swarna, April, Afaq and Jamilah.
- First met Amirah in KLCC and chilled.
- Then syafiq drove us to times square.
- Met up with the rest of the peoples and ate at Papa Johns (lame pizza place)
- Then played bowling :) I tied with Nik with 86pts.

June 19th:

Met up with Amirah again at One Utama, syafiq was sick. We ate at Waffle World and looked around shops :) We got more quality bonding time this time round. But i had to leave by 3 because I had salon appointment with Murphy for Grad Dinner that night.
- So while I went to Grad at Le Meridian..
- The rest of the Utama-ians, including syafiq (he got better yay!) went to Pavillion and ate at TGI Friday
- After grad went to afterparty at Loft :) twas nice.

June 21st:

Slept over at Cousin Kak Balqis' house :D that was fun
- Helped my mum do grocery shopping at Tesco.
- Went to KLCC to meet Kak Balqis.
- She drove us back all the way to her house in Cheras to change and take a shower.
- We went to pick up our other cousin Kak Mieza who lived in Puchong.
- We got lost for THREE hours (Cheras & Puchong are NOT far apart).
- When we finally found the place & picked her up... THE TIRES EXPLODED!
- Luckily the tank station dude helped us out.
- So then we went to Hartamas to meet friends and our other cousin Kak Yana.
- Then went back to her house in Cheras and slept at 4am.

June 22nd:
We left the house around 1 and went to Pavillion.
- Ate at Carls Jr but i bought Subway... cause im a rebel :P
- Watched Drag Me to Hell which was SCARY SHIT!
- Parted ways and got home around 8pm :)

June 26th:
Graduation Ceremony at school
- Twas at 7pm.. short & sweet

June 29th:
Went for my first Driving Lecture (5 hour intro course)

June 30th:

- Watched Transformers at Imax (Times Square) with the family :) Ate Kenny Rogers.
- Then met up with cousins that night at Sunway Pyramid to organize a Family Day. Ate Wendy's.

June 31st:

I FINALLY get to have a proper date with Syafiq. Its been a month I haven't been on a date with my boyfriend :( We missed each other so muches!
- Had indomie goreng frm Bestari for breakfast :D MANN i missed it! Since school ended a mnth ago, i never got to eat bestari anymore!
- Chilled at his place for a bit.
- Went to play pool.
- Went to Pavillion and ate Nandos for dinner :) it was a nice proper date
- We went karaoke at RedBox @ Pavillion:) Twas nice, i love you!
- He spent rm100 in one day with me :P makes up for me being missing the last month baby ;)

July 2nd:
My driving theory test.
- I PASSED :D and it was my first time too!
- Lol but i only just made the passing mark 42/50 :P


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So thats what I've been up to lately.. heres plans in the near future:

July 3rd:
Rehearse procedure for my cousin's (Abg Khairel's) engagement at 9.30pm at Kak Yana's house.

July 4th:
Cousin's engagement at 6pm.

July 6th:
The 2nd Driving Lecture (Mechanical) 6 hours

Teen Pregnancy

So its about 4AM+ right about now and I'm incredibly emotional atm. I just watched this film on Hallmark called A Mom at Sixteen.. so you can probably imagine laa.. why I feel so like this.. i kept crying and crying and sobbing like a baby throughout the movie.. pdhal tgk sorang2 tgh mlm... so sad lol! N then syafiq call panik gile, ingat die dah buat salah lol... tgk2, i ws just crying over a movie lol.. I'm the world's biggest cry baby. lol and he prob thinks it too. Sbb i cry mcm budak kecik seriously, yang loud punye cryy.

So the conclusion from the movie is... Don't have teen sex and don't get pregnant! We're too young, imagine if it actually happened to us, you probably can't imagine but then your WHOLE LIFE would stop. Nothing would ever be the same. You can't hang out with your friends mcm dlu, you can't just live a carefree life being young. You have so much more responsibilities.

The worst thing i think is if like in the movie, you get pregnant with someone you love.. your love is practically over. Theres no way both of you can live a normal married life and take care of the kid, you simply can't afford it yet. You haven't even finished school or college. Atleast if you get pregnant from a stranger you'd only have to worry about you child. If you got pregnant from your long-term boyfriend, you would face losing him too and ontop of the shock and pressure of taking care of a child, you'd be heart broken like crazy.

Omg... this post was such rant. Sorry for the low quality, i was just wayyy too emotional to write straight.

All in all the movie did a good job:
a) It scared me from sex
b) The scenario and acting was very convincing, it made me cry!
c) It teaches morals and is an ethical production