Can you determine your own Destiny?

Lately I've been watching this series thats really close to my heart, I believe perhaps it is my favourite tv series. Its called Princess Hours, but in Korean its called Goong - which means Palace. It showcases the life of an average girl getting married into the imperial family, the hardships she had to face in gaining the prince's love, and when she was down, the boy who was there to console her. This boy is the one that captures the most of my attention, the one I sympathize most for. He is in love with a girl he cannot have. No matter how badly her own husband treats her he would always be the one who treated her with care, the one who gave her a place she could rest her heavy heart on.. he would make her forget all the hurt and pain she felt inside. But in the end, she does not love him, and he can't marry her because she is his cousin-in-law... when i see his tears, at that moment, I can feel all the immense pain he carries in his heart. The type of love that hurts. It hurts so much I wish I could just protect him... His.. his is the saddest face I have ever seen. When I see him cry I want to reach out to him.. because I know how it feels to cry tears or blood.. it hurts.. it hurts soo much...

The soundtrack of the series when I watched it the first time had such a big effect on me. Eventhough initially I didn't know what the words meant, relating the melody back to the storyline, always made me tear. When I got to know the words, I love the songs even more.. I'm not going to go over the songs again as I was obsessed about it the last time.. Please accept a different song I've been listening to lately, which has the same feel.

Cuba kau dengar,
Cuba kau cuba
Diam bila ku cuba
tuk berbicara dengan kamu

Pernahkah kau ada?
Bila ku perlu
tuk meluahkan rasa hati

Dan bila kau bersuara
setia ku mendengar
agar tenang kau merasa..

Siapa sebenarnya aku padamu?
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain,
yang bisa kau buat begitu..
Dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain,
kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
Itulah aku…padamu..

Cuba kau lihat
cuba kau cuba
renung ke mata aku
bila ku kaku melihatmu

Pernahkah kau ada
bila ku perlu
tuk menyatakan rasa sakit
dalam diri

Dan bila kau perlu
setia ku menunggu
agar senang kau merasa

Siapa sebenarnya aku padamu?
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain,
yang bisa kau buat begitu..
Dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain,
kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
Itulah aku…padamu..

The worst thing you could do,
is make someone fall for you..
when you know you can't give them your heart.